Weekend and Monday

Saturday we did not do a lot we have big chickens so we have not been wondering off to farm from the farm. My scales were good. If I can just keep them there all weekend. I got in booty day

My sweet boy wanted to pose with me after exercise. 

breakfast was 2 pieces of sausage eggs, grits and 2 biscuits 

We did venture out to Troy and got a Sir Pizza for lunch/supper I love Sir Pizza!

I forgot to take a picture before eating some of it.

We went out to grandma's and picked up persimmons. The tree is so loaded with persimmons that have not even ripened yet. 

Well the evening did not end well Clay's tooth swelled his check back up and we ended up taking him back to urgent care Sunday morning.

I forgot to weigh so I don't have a picture of the scales to share. I am so frustrated with the dentist and not getting his appointment to get this problem taken care of. We are suppose to be referred to Chapel Hill I am calling them 1st thing Monday morning.

While out we got a Bojangles ham biscuit for breakfast. I forgot to take a picture of it also I drank a 20 oz coke with it. 

For lunch I made a cheeseburger casserole with 85% ground round and I made us a salad to go with it forgot the salad picture.

this is really yummy

For supper I had a cup of pintos with some chili powder and 1 tbs of greek yogurt

dont look to yummy but it was good

Monday morning Oh well the scales were up this morning. 

Like really It makes you want to give up!

Breakfast was eggbeaters and oatmeal. After I got up and finished breakfast I called Chapel Hill and got the run around. I had to leave my name and number. It is going on 3 weeks and we still have not got nothing set for my baby boys tooth. So I called the oral surgeon to see if they could still pull the tooth so it will take care of the infection. So I have an appointment for 6:45 am October 11.  I am going to still make an appointment in Chapel Hill and just take both of the boys.

breakfast 1/2 cup egg beaters and 1/4 cup oatmeal

I had to make and appointment with his general practitioner and get him a prescription of valium to take before the surgery. That was more of and ordeal than I thought it would be. When we got there Clay went in and sit down in the waiting room. There was a man in there waiting to see the doctor and he started clearing his throat and coughing.Well this is one of the main things in public that Clay can not stand is for someone to cough or clear their throat. He went out the door and would not come back inside. I had to call the Farmer to come and help but this made Clay just go to the car. So the Farmer and Clay sat in the car while I waited for them to call Clay back to see the doctor. I was so happy they worked with me and that the doctor gave me the prescription so the surgery should happen Thursday. We ate lunch in the car while waiting for the doctor. I had 3 chicken tenders from the deli at the grocery store and a bottle of water. 

I had 3 boiled eggs mashed up into egg salad with 1 table spoon of olive oil mayo and vinegar, salt and pepper. I had it on a flat-out fold over. Forgot the picture of the egg salad but here is the folded. this is some good stuff if you have not tired it. I also had a shakeology and around 4 whole dill pickles I canned over the summer. 

I should have stopped eating right here but I wanted something sweet so bad I had a pack of vanilla nekot cookies with a cup a coffee and 4 natural peanut butter crackers. 

I know the scales will probably be up again tomorrow. I have got to stop stressing and get my baby boy straighten out with his teeth. Please say a prayer fo us.

Friday day 5

Oh my when is cooler weather ever coming in. I am beginning to think that we are never going to have a fall or a spring every again. It just goes to winter to summer and that is the only 2 season we have anymore unless you want to add the rainy season this year. Oh well maybe winter will come soon.

The scales were up just like a predicted this morning. I have tried to eat healthy today but I have not done my best.

It could have been worse but if I can keep it here or go back down over the weekend I will be happy. The weekend are always hard. I had 1/2 cup of eggbeaters with spinach, red onions and red bell peppers. I put my homemade salsa on top. 

I finished week one day 4 of Lift 4 today. It was leg day. I also did a 30 squat challenge. Booty is on fire🔥

After my workout I took a shower and had a shakeology. I always make the same kind spinach, pb2, 1/2 banana and coffee. 

Pardon the hair it is still wet from my shower

We had taco salad for lunch. 1/2 cup of 85% ground beef taco meat, lettuce tomato, red onion and red bell pepper, 1 tbs greek non-fat yogurt, 1 tbs. of  tortilla strips and my homemade salsa. 

I forgot to take a picture of my supper but I took a picture of the ingredients. 1 boiled egg, 1 tbs of chopped sweet pickles 1 tbs of the mayo. I had 10 saltine crackers with my tuna salad. 

My cheat for today was this. A pepsi and a dark chocolate kit kat.

 

Triscuts and 2 square of colby jack cheese. 

Maybe I did not eat to bad. I really am trying to stay accountable by posting my food on my blog and on my instagram. 

Thanks for reading my blog and all the support I get.

Day 3 and 4 trying to get it together.....

Day 3

I got the call from the oral surgeon to schedule Clays appointment to pull his bad tooth. While talking to the office the things that she was asking me made me very uneasy trusting my adult fragile x son with. I stressed about it the rest of the day until I finally called the dentist office and told her how I felt about it. She said she would help me and get it straighten out and if she had to she would get him an appointment in Chapel Hill. Well by the time the Farmer came in I talked him I was going to call  and get a referral to Chapel Hill. I will feel more comfortable with an dentist that has worked with special needs adults.

Now about my getting healthy. I liked what the scales said this morning

 I had a shakeology for breakfast 

This is lunch salmon patties cooked on the griddle, collard greens cooked with pam olive oil, peas, sweet potatoes cooked with lite butter, and truvia brown sugar, and I made weight watcher cornbread muffins. 

Yesterday was suppose to be a rest day but I did cardio core from 80 day obsession. Here is my sweaty selfie

Well the stress of worrying about the dentist and I ended up eating really bad for supper. I had 4 slices of bacon cooked on griddle, 2 slices of tomato, lettuce on 2 hamburger buns. Then I had 2 boiled eggs made into egg salad made with lite olive oil mayonnaise, vinegar, salt and pepper. I ate this on a hamburger bun also. I also had a bowl of chocolate Kellogg frosted flakes. I also had 3 peanut butter crackers. I think this is all I ended up eating. I really need to get a hold of my emotional eating. 

Day 4 

The scales this morning. I am so happy they did not go up or at least not yet. I told myself today is a new day and everything is going to be alright. You are not going to worry about Clay and the dentist because it will work out. 

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I had my shakeology for breakfast and I did day 3 fo Lift 4 shoulder day.

I had a very late lunch because we ended up going to the grocery store and it was around 2 before I ate lunch. I had a Black Forrest Ham footlong sub from subway on wheat bread. The toppings were provolone cheese, all of the vegetables, and mustard. I had around 60 goldfish crackers, I had 6 triscut crackers with 2 squares of colby jack cheese. I also had a fiber one protein bar 90 calories and a 

pineapple popsicle 

Not sure what that is on my sub but I promise it is not mayo. 

I bet the scales will not be so forgiving tomorrow . I have drank 90 oz of water today. Oh well tomorrow is a new day and all will be good. I will have have success and I will get my act together. 

Oct. 2 Day 2

I am really trying hard to eat healthy. It is so hard. I weighed again this morning and the scales were down but the question is can I keep it down?

I had another shakeology for breakfast. The same as yesterday. For lunch I had a open top cheeseburger with lettuce, 2 slices of tomato, 2 slices of bacon 1 slice of cheese and the bottom of the bun. I had zucchini fries with it.

For supper I had my prepped food of eggplant  parmesan and a salad of lettuce, red onion, and red bell pepper. I also had my 0 point cheesecake with blueberries 

I also had a gala apple, and 3 natural peanut butter crackers unsalted tops, about 8 green olives and 1 dill pickle. I drank 90 oz of water. I did my Lift 4 Biceps and Back today. 

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October 1 Day 1

October 1st is on a Monday this year and that means a new week, a new month and a new beginning. I heard a inspirational motivation this morning asking "How are you going to finish the last quarter of the year?" What is God going to call you to do and are you going to do it? Well I am here to say that I am praying that these last 91 days are going to be some great days. I hope to leave the stress and worries of the following weeks and months behind.

I got up with a better attitude this morning. I weighed, measured and took before pictures. I did not like what the scales said but I will not let that defined who I am and what I can accomplish with the help of God. My measurements were not that bad compared to last time I measured and I can never tell any difference from one before picture to the other in the last year. Oh well. I have eaten really good today and If I can finish this evening without snacking I will be very proud of myself.

I also started a new beach body program Lift 4 and my arms feel like jello. Wow maybe I will get rid of my bat wings LOL

Scales this morning 10lbs more than last year

Sweaty selfie after Lift 4

Shake for breakfast 

Lunch eggplant parmesan and salad

Supper Stir-fry chicken with veggies

0 point cheesecake and 1/2 cup blueberries 

food tracking for today

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Life

I don't know what else to call this entry. So much going on with me I am all over the place. Let's begin with this hurricane Florence. As most of you know that follow me we grow chickens for a well known chicken company. We have 2 houses with approximately 40,000 bird total. Well the Farmer was stressed because of the amount of rain they were calling for and the wind speeds. We were told we needed 350 gallons of diesel fuel on hand for generator incase power goes off. So we had to go out and buy a extra tank. Stress and worry with this and how bad it was going to be. Thank God it was not near as bad as they were calling for here. Our power only went off for about 3 hours and that was great.

The stress of my sister staying in New Bern during the hurricane was affecting me also. Luckily she did not get any damage but was without power 4 days I think that is what she told me. My youngest son had an upset stomach, got a first ever mouth ulcer in the corner of his mouth and then his face was swollen  and finally got him to let us look in his mouth and he has a bad tooth. We ended up taking him to urgent care because the dentist was already closed. Got him on antibiotic and I called the dentist and took him. I told them he would not cooperate and they would not be able to get into his mouth without sedation of some kind. I don't think they really believed me but it did not happen when we got there. He totally refused to have anything to do with them coming near him. They said they would make arrangement with an oral surgeon and go in and fix anything that needs to be fixed at one time. I have not heard back from them and it has been a week so I have been stressing about that. 

Also during all of this I broke out in a rash on my breast area. So I took it as stress, high humidity and sweat. Well a week later and it did not go away so I ended up going to the doctor also to see what was going on. I have been to this doctor for at least 30 years and for some reason this time I was stressed/anxiety so bad that my blood pressure was high and heart rate. I know I sound like I am losing it and I honestly I would agree right now. 

I know in my last post I was going to make changes and get my act together on my nutrition and my scales slowly creeping back up. I read two blogs yesterday from 2 different women who are going through the same thing as me. I really think that women struggle so much trying to do everything to please and take care of others that they kind of let theirselves fall to the wayside. We try to make out that we just want to be happy and eat normal and not worry about anything. We try hard to convince ourself that all is good, but deep inside we know that it is a lie. We have to stay on our toes, always aware of what we are putting into our mouths. But the most important thing that I keep forgetting is that I need to let God help me with everything not just pick and choose what I think I can handle and what I know I can't. I have had like 2 more episodes of my heart beating fasting and feeling stressed/anxiety since the doctor. I need to give it all to God and stop letting me stress over and trust that it is in his hands and he will take care of it like it needs to be. 

I am starting a new program tomorrow called Lift4 with Joel from Beach Body. I am ready for a change in exercise and my nutrition will get its act together. I will get the dental procedure scheduled and taken care of this coming week. But my biggest thing I want to do is get me time in with God. I have let that take a back seat to. On my instagram I am posted pictures of my food if anyone is interested in following. I am trying to eat clean. vltgarner is my instagram. 

This is steel bridge in Thickety Creek. It flooded and a tree hit it and tore part of it off. I will never forget on a date years ago with the Farmer in his big Monster gray truck. I thought we were going to hit the sides. 

I am selling persimmons again. I have not gotten as many of orders this year. 

I made a pudding with this for less calories and it was yummy

5 dollars a bag 2 cups of pulp in a bag

Isn't the pulp pretty 

Well I guess that about covers everything that is going on here. I hope the next post I have has a lot less stress in it.

Changes....

Tomorrow I am going to start making big changes. I have been off the praising Jesus and getting healthy wagon fo way to long now. I have got to chase the devil out of my house and fight all my cravings for food and start craving God and his word more. I read a great devotion on Friday that talked straight to my heart.

The bible devotion and this bible verse is telling me that it is time to get my act back together and stop talking about it. 

Romans 7:15-25 New King James Version (NKJV)

15 For what I am doing, I do not understand. For what I will to do, that I do not practice; but what I hate, that I do. 16 If, then, I do what I will not to do, I agree with the law that it is good. 17 But now, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells in me. 18 For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh) nothing good dwells; for to will is present with me, but how to perform what is good I do not find. 19 For the good that I will to do, I do not do; but the evil I will not to do, that I practice. 20 Now if I do what I will not to do, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells in me.

21 I find then a law, that evil is present with me, the one who wills to do good. 22 For I delight in the law of God according to the inward man. 23 But I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members. 24 O wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death? 25 I thank God—through Jesus Christ our Lord!

So then, with the mind I myself serve the law of God, but with the flesh the law of sin.

I know it is going to be hard to stop snacking on unhealthy foods. I have found a new candy bar that I want every day. a Kit Kat dark. This to must leave my life except maybe once a month. 

I will begin tomorrow and I will keep you updated.