Seth's 30th birthday

Wow my boy would have turned 30 years on a few days ago. I had big plans for his 30th. I was going to take him to the Alan Jackson concert that is happening tonight. He loved some Alan Jackson. But instead We went to Hobby lobby and bought him some flowers for his headstone, a sign for his adopt a hyway sign. I also ordered flowers to be placed in front of the church Sunday in his honor.

It was so hard. I miss him so much But I know that he is with God and in a better place. I have rejoined weight watchers again. I have gained so much weight and out of shape. I have been riding my bike Tour de Pants trying to get back into my jeans I am not goint to buy any new ones I refuse. I just want to be healthy. I am going for a girls weekend retreat next weekend with my sister and sister-in-law. I am excited and sad. I have been isolating myself from people because I dont want to see people. So I am going to break the wall I have been keeping up not wanting to see people by going and praising God. I am going to do a lot of praying to make through the 1st year anniversary of his passing.