Surrenders......

Mondays cardio fix is on of my hardest days of exercise. I get out of breath easy on this one but I believe it has a lot to do with surrenders. The video above is a surrender but I am not able to do it like this I am not really even doing the modified version. I have to use my hands to get up and down and I also do it on the corner of the mat so my knees are wider apart on the triangle. You have to do the surrenders for 60 seconds. Don't seem very long until you start doing it. I feel disappointed in myself because even after 4th round I am still unable to do them and the next move with out getting out of breath. Oh well I should look at the bright side and say that I am still doing them and getting stronger.

My plan the next two weeks is really work on the food. I have got to get this food under control. I love eating out and it is so hard to say no to Sir Pizza. But I have gained weight over the weekend from eating out to much. I really want to be and stay in the 190's before vacation.

Matthew 19:26New King James Version (NKJV)

26 But Jesus looked at them and said to them, “With men this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”

Feelings

Tonight was Zumba and our diet group "More of him and less of me". I lost 2.2 pounds this week. I am so proud of myself. I am feeling the urge of competition and I don't need this. Our group lost a total of 25.2 pounds this week. This is great, but why do I have this feeling that I did not do good. Getting older is so hard to lose weight, it is so hard to get a tan, it is so hard to exercise and to walk and get my steps in. I hate this feeling of jealousy. I want to lose a lot of weight I want to get a dark tan I want to beat the step challenges and I am behind in all of them.

I never did get back to finish this post. I have already been to another diet group class and I was back up a pound. But I the same day I had my yearly checkup and the doctor told me I weighed the least I had weighed since 2010. This made me feel proud to. I measured the same day and I have lost a total of 19 inches all over since April 11. 

The inches are all well and good and I am feeling stronger every day but I really want to get this weight off but I just can not seem to find what I need to do. Counting calories just not doing it anymore. I know it is because I eat stuff that really should not be on a healthy diet, but I think if I stay in my calorie range it don't matter but it does. I have lost 11 pounds that I gained from the holidays. It is sad that it took me that long. Oh well I am still happy. 

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More of Him and Less of Me

I started a new bible study for the summer help me start once again putting God first  and losing weight. We will be doing "Take back your Temple". I am still struggling to get my food under control. I do eat less and I try to eat so much more healthier. But when you have a little family restaurant that makes the best cheeseburgers all the way it is hard to so no. I do give up almost all of my fries though. I still have a small piece of dark chocolate everyday. I am still exercising and tomorrow is the last day of my 3rd round of 21 day fix. I am still doing my zumba exercise 2 days a week also. I am not doing as much walking because my hip joint just can not take it. I have goals to accomplish before April.

Do you know that I am not even 50 years old yet and I can not sit on the floor cross-legged (indian style). I can not touch my toes anymore, I can not do sit ups anymore and to me that is so sad. I am feeling older than I am. I can not even get up and down off the floor with out a big deal. These are some of my goals to accomplish. I want to be able to do everyday of the 21 day fix video  with out modifying. I am getting more determined everyday.

This morning is the first time since Thanksgiving that I have weighed under 200 pounds. I weighed 198.6 this morning. Happy Dance!!!

They cut the hay over in the pasture this week and scared up two turkey hens off their nest. Luckily they did not hurt the turkeys or the nest. They appeared to come back to them later that evening. I am really hoping that they hatch.

This is the first nest

this is the second nest.

Look how pretty my little flower bed is doing

Seth trying to be brave a pet the kitty

He is a little scared of cats so he is really being brave.

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Sluggish Monday

Wow I Mondays are starting to really get to me. I have been taking Sunday off for a day of rest. I don't do much of anything but what has to be done. One thing I do and need to stop is eating bad food on the weekends, well it actually started Friday this week. I had a cheeseburger all the way with a small handful of fries. Saturday we ate popcorn shrimp, 3 hushpuppies and a small handful of fries from Westmoore Restaurant. Sunday we cooked chicken out on the grill with baked bean, and potato salad. I will not mentioned all of the snacks I had also. So what do you think I had today? I had 2 sausage patties, 2 eggs, 2 small Food Lion brand canned biscuits for breakfast. Lunch 1 4oz hamburger patty with 1/2 slice melted cheese on bun with lettuce tomato, onion and olive oil mayo. I also had a serving of Doritos. Oh well.

Why can I not get myself to eat clean everyday? I love food and it is so hard anymore. I really need to commit to eating better. I thought Monday morning exercise and barely feeling like I can do it was coming from resting on Sundays but I do believe I am totally wrong. It is so sad. I can hear the words of the exercise instructor on the video telling me I need to stop blowing all of my hard work in the kitchen. That is exactly what I am doing!!