Christmas

Well another Christmas has come and gone with out my sweet boy. I have let emotions over whelm me some of the days and emotionaly eating. I have gained 7 pounds and I was in 2 accountable groups to try to maintain or lose through the holidays. I ended the year weighing more than I did at the first of the year. Oh well a lot has happened this year and I have been so slack and not made blog post. I have grown closer to God my Father and Jesus my saviour and the Holy spirit that is with me everyday. I have worked hard all year to heal and forgive. I have come a long ways. The devil is constantly whispering lies in my ear and trying to discouarage me. To take me down and pull me away from God but he does not succeed. I try to stay in Gods word daily, journal and read a devotional book. I listen to a lot of praise music. I try to always find Joy even when it seems impossibl. I hit my knees alot with my face on the floor and tears in my eyes. I Thank God eveynight for all of my blessing. I just keep trying to be a better God fearing woman. I plan on going into the new year with the word to try and work into my life daily "Determined" I am determined to be a humble christain woman that people can see how God is working in my life. Here are a few pictres from Christmas.

Us at Morrow Mountain

Mattie Ross playing with the Christmas ribbon

Daddy's and Seth's graves

Mama's and Granny's grave

Christmas Day I hope everyone had a Merry Christmas and a Very Happy New Year. Prayers That 2024 is a year full of God and his wil.

Life update

Well I really don't like this blog format anymore. I dislike how it loads pictures now. You can not make a post and see the pictures until it is published. Oh well I guess it dosen't matter since I have not posted anything in almost a year. Not a lot has happened since the lost post I made. We are still farming. We are still relying on God to get through every day. The anniversary of Seth death was November 15. It is so hard to believe that my son has been gone from this earth for 2 years. Where did the time go?? I have put up my Christmas trees.

we also cut a cedar tree to decorate at grandmas house without lights just balls

I decorated my house on November 1

January thru October

Blink of an Eye and it has been a year....

I can not belive that it has been a year today that my precious boy went to be with God in heaven. It still seems like it is not real. That one day he is going to walk back through the door and say "Hey Kits" his nickname for me. My heart thinks of him everyday. My eyes release tears everyday. Some days you think this is going to be a good day but then it hits you like a punch in the gut. I miss his hugs, his kisses, his sweet voice.I had 3 people to remember that today marked 1 year. My sister-in-law Lauren, my brother, my friend Janet. I did not have the need to share on fb. I did not want to read all of the prayers, hugs, and love today. I ust wanted to rmember with the Farmer and Clay. I got thru it better than I thought I would. Tears and memories was all i had. We did eat one of his favorite foods for supper spaghetti (spegaletti) that is what he liked to call it. I love him so much and without God and my trust in Him and my faith I would never had made it through it all. I hope and pray that anyone who reads my blog know Jesus Christ and if you dont I hope you go find out or ask me. Now on the other things going on in my life. I put up my Christmas trees. I put up all but 1 of my trees this year.

You know I need to complain about blogging I really dislike this formate where you can not see the pictures until it is published it is really frustrating. I had a friend to make a special ornament for me and my mother in law gave me a beautiful ornament.

I guess I have one more thing I want to share I went out to look on the deck and saw my gerber daisy. I also have to share a sweet picture of my Mattie Ross.

Well I will end here. Thanks

Seth's 30th birthday

Wow my boy would have turned 30 years on a few days ago. I had big plans for his 30th. I was going to take him to the Alan Jackson concert that is happening tonight. He loved some Alan Jackson. But instead We went to Hobby lobby and bought him some flowers for his headstone, a sign for his adopt a hyway sign. I also ordered flowers to be placed in front of the church Sunday in his honor.

It was so hard. I miss him so much But I know that he is with God and in a better place. I have rejoined weight watchers again. I have gained so much weight and out of shape. I have been riding my bike Tour de Pants trying to get back into my jeans I am not goint to buy any new ones I refuse. I just want to be healthy. I am going for a girls weekend retreat next weekend with my sister and sister-in-law. I am excited and sad. I have been isolating myself from people because I dont want to see people. So I am going to break the wall I have been keeping up not wanting to see people by going and praising God. I am going to do a lot of praying to make through the 1st year anniversary of his passing.

Near me.....

Hey everyone I know this is a strange title but I was not sure what to call it. I have been struggling toay missing my boy so much. The closer it gets to his birthday the harder it feels in my heart. I want to scream why God?? Why did you take my boy? But I trust God and I know he has a plan and that I will one day soon be in heaven with Jesus and Seth and so many other love ones. Well this post was suppose to be about things that I feel like Seth sends me to let me know hw is always near. I think firs of all my sweet puppy Mattie Ross was sent by Seth. He told me to name her Mattie Ross from one of his favorite John Wayne movies True Grit. She has been so much comfort to our family. She is the pickest eater I have ever encountered. She will not eat human food hardly or dog food. She mostly survives on sweet potato sticks wraped in chicken jerky. She loves them and she wil also eat duck sausages, She love ice cream also LOL. She smells everything and make this sound of disgust when she does not like the smell. She loves to play, sleep and lay in my lap. She just got spayed last Wednesday. She did great.

A lot of things have happened on the farm and in life for the past 9 months. Someone came in broad daylight and stole our bushhog and an older zero turn lawnmower. This occured in a week span of time. The dectectives took DNA samples of 2 drink bottles that were left at the crime scene.It had been at least 3 months and we had given up on ever seeing them again and a Randolph county dective called and had found them. Can you believe it? The Farmer had alread went and bought himself a new bushhog. He was out mowing the pasture in front of our house and when he was done he came in and told me he had to show me something that Seth had sent us. I could not imagine what it could be. We road our kawasaki mule out there to see. There stood a really big persimmon tree loaded with persimmons. Now let me give you a little back story we have been living up here on the farm for 28 year this pass May and the farmer has lived in the general area his whole life. We have gotten big rock from the area. The Farmer feed the cows hay in the very spot. There has never been a persimmon there ever. I have already got people wanting the pulp. I just can not decide if I want to do it this year. But maybe this is Seth telling me to just do it.

We also have a good amount of grapes.