Life

I don't know what else to call this entry. So much going on with me I am all over the place. Let's begin with this hurricane Florence. As most of you know that follow me we grow chickens for a well known chicken company. We have 2 houses with approximately 40,000 bird total. Well the Farmer was stressed because of the amount of rain they were calling for and the wind speeds. We were told we needed 350 gallons of diesel fuel on hand for generator incase power goes off. So we had to go out and buy a extra tank. Stress and worry with this and how bad it was going to be. Thank God it was not near as bad as they were calling for here. Our power only went off for about 3 hours and that was great.

The stress of my sister staying in New Bern during the hurricane was affecting me also. Luckily she did not get any damage but was without power 4 days I think that is what she told me. My youngest son had an upset stomach, got a first ever mouth ulcer in the corner of his mouth and then his face was swollen  and finally got him to let us look in his mouth and he has a bad tooth. We ended up taking him to urgent care because the dentist was already closed. Got him on antibiotic and I called the dentist and took him. I told them he would not cooperate and they would not be able to get into his mouth without sedation of some kind. I don't think they really believed me but it did not happen when we got there. He totally refused to have anything to do with them coming near him. They said they would make arrangement with an oral surgeon and go in and fix anything that needs to be fixed at one time. I have not heard back from them and it has been a week so I have been stressing about that. 

Also during all of this I broke out in a rash on my breast area. So I took it as stress, high humidity and sweat. Well a week later and it did not go away so I ended up going to the doctor also to see what was going on. I have been to this doctor for at least 30 years and for some reason this time I was stressed/anxiety so bad that my blood pressure was high and heart rate. I know I sound like I am losing it and I honestly I would agree right now. 

I know in my last post I was going to make changes and get my act together on my nutrition and my scales slowly creeping back up. I read two blogs yesterday from 2 different women who are going through the same thing as me. I really think that women struggle so much trying to do everything to please and take care of others that they kind of let theirselves fall to the wayside. We try to make out that we just want to be happy and eat normal and not worry about anything. We try hard to convince ourself that all is good, but deep inside we know that it is a lie. We have to stay on our toes, always aware of what we are putting into our mouths. But the most important thing that I keep forgetting is that I need to let God help me with everything not just pick and choose what I think I can handle and what I know I can't. I have had like 2 more episodes of my heart beating fasting and feeling stressed/anxiety since the doctor. I need to give it all to God and stop letting me stress over and trust that it is in his hands and he will take care of it like it needs to be. 

I am starting a new program tomorrow called Lift4 with Joel from Beach Body. I am ready for a change in exercise and my nutrition will get its act together. I will get the dental procedure scheduled and taken care of this coming week. But my biggest thing I want to do is get me time in with God. I have let that take a back seat to. On my instagram I am posted pictures of my food if anyone is interested in following. I am trying to eat clean. vltgarner is my instagram. 

This is steel bridge in Thickety Creek. It flooded and a tree hit it and tore part of it off. I will never forget on a date years ago with the Farmer in his big Monster gray truck. I thought we were going to hit the sides. 

I am selling persimmons again. I have not gotten as many of orders this year. 

I made a pudding with this for less calories and it was yummy

5 dollars a bag 2 cups of pulp in a bag

Isn't the pulp pretty 

Well I guess that about covers everything that is going on here. I hope the next post I have has a lot less stress in it.

Changes....

Tomorrow I am going to start making big changes. I have been off the praising Jesus and getting healthy wagon fo way to long now. I have got to chase the devil out of my house and fight all my cravings for food and start craving God and his word more. I read a great devotion on Friday that talked straight to my heart.

The bible devotion and this bible verse is telling me that it is time to get my act back together and stop talking about it. 

Romans 7:15-25 New King James Version (NKJV)

15 For what I am doing, I do not understand. For what I will to do, that I do not practice; but what I hate, that I do. 16 If, then, I do what I will not to do, I agree with the law that it is good. 17 But now, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells in me. 18 For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh) nothing good dwells; for to will is present with me, but how to perform what is good I do not find. 19 For the good that I will to do, I do not do; but the evil I will not to do, that I practice. 20 Now if I do what I will not to do, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells in me.

21 I find then a law, that evil is present with me, the one who wills to do good. 22 For I delight in the law of God according to the inward man. 23 But I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members. 24 O wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death? 25 I thank God—through Jesus Christ our Lord!

So then, with the mind I myself serve the law of God, but with the flesh the law of sin.

I know it is going to be hard to stop snacking on unhealthy foods. I have found a new candy bar that I want every day. a Kit Kat dark. This to must leave my life except maybe once a month. 

I will begin tomorrow and I will keep you updated. 

Wow what a week...

It is only Thursday and this has been a doozy of a week. Monday was not to bad. It was probably the better of the days. Tuesday I went out to a moms night out by the pool. I am really thinking about starting going to the moms night out group/bible study. I really need something to get me out fo the house again. Well went  I got home my youngest son was all out of sort. He does this once in a while. I feel like he did not get his beach vacation out. He loves the beach and this year was not like our normal vacation. He is the calmest he ever is when he is at the ocean.

His second favorite thing is going to Brookgreen Gardens and seeing the sheep. There is always one sheep that comes into the stable and sees him. Well this summer they did not stay open for the cool summer evening. We had to go early for the place closed. 

Well he has been wanting to pack and go back to the beach. He stayed up all night or until 5:00 am and then he went to sleep and slept until 10 this next morning. He had a good day but then he got wild again that evening he cried it out and after that he seemed to feel better. It is so hard when you don't know what is wrong with your children no mater how old they get. 

Here are a few pictures from our pool party. I only got pictures of the food and just a few of the moms. 

Wow I started this post a while back and did not finish it. Here it is Wednesday of the next week and I am feeling as low as I was the week before. I feel like everyone has days, weeks or longer were they are down in the dumps and can not pull themselves out of it. I feel in between being happy and who gives a crap mood. I can not pin point just one specific thing that is making me feel this way but it is there nagging on me in my mind. Making me feel like a failure and who really cares? I know my husband and children love me and I have others family member that dont want to see anything happen to me. But the question is "Who really cares?" Everyone is busy in their own lives and family and don't have time to stop. Our society has become hooked on stuff that is going bad in this world. Things to destroy people their livelihood and God. You have to watch what you say, how you handle yourself in public. Animals are more important than humans (saying sometimes there are more laws to protect an animal than a child). I will pull myself out of this slump just like I always do. I feel like I am getting lazy. I don't care myself because I feel like no one else does. I am going to get a hair cut tomorrow maybe that will help my feelings that is if I don't chicken out. I am tired of exercising. I am tired of not being. I feel like I have fell through the cracks and no body is looking for me. Oh well I will pray. God is always there for me and he loves me and that is what counts the most.  

Sorry for the rant but I needed to get it off my chest. If you read this far I am good and God loves me!! 

Long time....

I have not posted in a long time. It seem like nothing has been going on around my place lately. Then I started thinking I have a few things to share. Are garden did good for a while. I made so many pickles this year. I thought I had pictures of some of my pickles but I don't. I made my aunts dill pickles, and i found a gherkins sweet pickle recipe and me and my husband have almost eaten all of them. I also made 3 gallons of 3 month pickles that will be sweet when I finish them in 3 months. I also tried something new I spiraled some yellow squash and some zucchini and froze them.

Yellow spiral squash

I went and bought me some tomatoes from a local farm that sells to the public I bought 3 25lb boxes and made spaghetti sauce

tomatoes

Peeling the tomatoes 

Canning the spaghetti sauce

some of the sauce 

Our blueberries produce a lot this year I froze 3 gallons of them.

Here is 1 of the gallons of blueberries

I canned some green beans this year also. 

Oh if forgot that I planted my first ever egg plant and it has one baby egg plant on it.

Well I guess that is enough about canning and freezing. I started a new diet planned with Beach body called 2B Mindset. I did really well on it until vacation and I have got to get started back Monday. I have not lost 1 single pound this year. I can not tell any different in my body even doing exercise everyday. I bought myself a cricut explore air 2. I am excited about it. I bought several tank tops to make I tried my first one the yesterday.

Here is the practice card I made

Here is my first tank I made

We went to the beach and we had a great time The pictures are the same as the ones from the past. We are creatures of habit around here. We went to Brookgreen Gardens and to Huntington beach State park. The week was nice it rained about everyday but God was good to us and we got 4 hours a day on the beach with sun everyday except Friday. I was so grateful. Here is our yearly family beach picture 

Well that about catches me up I am going to try hard to do better with this blog. I have gotten lazy on doing most anything. I feel guilty because there are so many things I need to do and I just don't seem like I have enough time in the day or the motivation to get it done. It has been so hot that I have not wanted to do anything. I am not really in a funk but a lot has been going on. The Farmers sister had an heart attack at age 49. She is mostly a healthy person non smoker and non drinker. She had blockage and had stents put in  and had to have a pacemaker put in. She is dong better but please keep her in your prayers 

Thanks for stopping by

Quick post....that turned long

Well things are going alright around here. We are having hard time to get our tomatoes to live out at Grandmas house. We have lost several of plants that looks like they got a blight. We figured from all of the rain and humidity we have been having. The tomatoes at our house are doing good. they are pretty and have tomatoes on them.  We have little cucumber coming on and squash. Our half runner beans are so pretty I really hope they do well I am planning on selling them if they do.

tomatoes and peppers

Row of strike beans at our house 

We have 2 rows of strike beans at grandmas house we should have plenty of beans if the hot weather don't hurt them and if we keep getting some rain along.

The Farmer giving the tomatoes some shake and feed

I am trying one egg plant I have never grown one. I hope it does well

Half runner beans

We have 2 rows of half runner beans they are blooming but no beans yet

The farmer got our first harvest of cucumbers and yellow squash today. 

I checked the persimmon trees they are loaded with little green persimmons. I hope that I have another bumper crop this year. 

We have wild blackberries growing on the fence. The Farmer and I picked a small basket today. 

These are growing up into the cedar tree.

Here are the blackberries we picked today.

I got a ladies night out with Joytime and the church lady friends. We had a great time. We went and ate at the steak house in Randleman. I had a filet with sautéed veggies and a baked sweet potato. It was so yummy. The Joytime event was at Adaumont Farm in Trinity. 

Here is a picture of the place I borrowed from their page on FB. 

Big Daddy Weave was there I love his music

Here we are outside the barn in the picture. 

It was beautiful. Well I guess I better close here this quick post is getting long. Thanks for stopping by.