Day 2 My Earliest Memory....

A memory.... let see. I have a tiny brief memory of falling down the babysitters stairs and breaking my collar bone when I was two. I think most of my memories come from when I was 4-5 years old living in Ramsuer. We lived in a blue and white single wide trailer. I had a dog name brownie and my dad had horse and I had a pony. There are a lot of memories of playing and have fun out in the country.

I remember one time I decided I wanted to ride my pony. Daddy was not at home and mama was in the house. I went outside my pony just happened to be standing at the gate in the pasture. I climb up on the gate and got on him. He walked around for a minute and decided to go into the barn where he decided to stop right behind my dad's big horse. My dad had taught me not to stand behind a horse because it would kick you, but my pony would not move. I started screaming for my mama to come and rescue me. I was screaming and crying by the time she heard me and came and rescued me. I was not in any real danger but I was young and scared.

I also remember a tabby cat that my paw paw gave me. I named him kitty-tom. Paw paw had also gave me a big red flash that I would shine on the wall and kitty tom would chase it. I have hunted for pictures of my pony and the trailer we lived in but without success.

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Five problems with social media

 I have gotten really slack on doing a blog entry. I found this on Facebook and I decided to do a 30-day writing challenge. I hope that this will help me focus on other areas in my life also.


Five problems with social media is the topic for day one. I think the very first thing is bulling. So many use social media to bully others. They say mean things to people and some of the comments can be so hurtful that it pushes the person to kill either themselves or others. People are have lost their empathy and that is so sad to me.

The second thing wrong with social media is that you find out things on social media before family members or others find out. Everyone has always got a camera and ready to video and post before it is ever known in the news or to family. It has tore apart people lives, put them in jail, loss of jobs and embarrassment because of someone with a camera and social media.

The third thing I find wrong with social media is it is taking away from face to face time with people. Young people do not know how to communicate without a text or through social media. They ask for dates or break up with you and it is all done through technology. People do not know how to carry on a conversation and majority do not even pick a phone up and talk on it anymore. Write a letter on just talk to someone in person. They also losing family time because everyone is using a electronic device and not talking.

The fourth thing I find wrong with social media is a lot of times it makes the world seem a lot better or a lot worse than it really is. A mom that might be struggling trying to be a good mom and do a lot of stuff with their children and family and wanting to publish it on step by step with pictures to do for and the best captions ever to make their family look the best. It is like a video or photo op every time you turn around. Oh look they have been to the beach, they go somewhere every weekend. Making one jealous and depressed.


The fifth thing I find wrong with social media that it is a distraction in the car while driving. Everyone practically has a internet device in their vehicles and they find it necessary to talk on the phone from the minute they get into the car until they get out. They text, post, snap,  chat and what ever else that can be done on social media. It is so dangerous to be doing all of these things while trying to drive at the sam time. It is scary.

These are the things I find wrong with social media and I am guilty of some of the things myself. Even sitting here blogging is social media time taking away from my family. I would never in my life time ever bully anyone and I would stand up for anyone they is being bully. I hate this evil in the world.  I try hard not to use my phone while I am driving a car. Most of the time I usually use the car as my quite place to think and regroup. I have been guilty of texting instead of calling but a lot of the time it is because the person will not answer the phone. I would always rather talk than text.

I will admit I love Facebook. I have connection with family and friends that I might not ever see or talk to. I have gotten to know a few cousin that I may not have never known if it was not for Facebook. It is a good way to keep up with people and share a little bits and pieces of your lives. I also enjoy it for support and for a stay at home mom and house wife so far it has been a great way to staying connected with the outside world. I know a contradiction  in some sorts. Oh well thinks for reading my  blog.

The weather....The

Well I am so grateful for the rain It has really helped our pastures. They are so much greener. Now maybe the cows will have grass until winter. I am ready to see the sun though. I am missing walking every morning. The rain did cause havoc in so many place in South Carolina. I will be praying for the people that were affected by all of the flooding. We experienced a huge oak tree uprooting in our yard. It was scary because it happened at 1:30 am. The tree landed on our power line that runs to our house. The line broke and landed on top of our house and was laying in the yard right beside the house. I had to call 911 to find out what we needed to do. The power company showed up and fixed the line and everyone was safe. So thankful for the fire department and the linemen who came out in the rain to fix it all.

Udder Mama has been in the mud.

The big tree

took up the cotton bushes as well

The hole and roots. 

Now for the clean up. The Farmer has been working all day to get it all cleaned up. 

I have started a new journey. I am trying hard to find my happy healthy self. I saw on the news tonight about 365 days of Joy. I know that it is not possible to be happy everyday all day long but I can find some Joy and something to be Thankful for everyday. I am also going to try real hard to lose the rest of the weight I need to lose. I am going to try Trim Healthy Mama. 

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Around the farm

Not much going on around here on the farm. It has been so dry that our pasture looked like it has been plowed up because the grass is so dry. We have been feeding the cows and they are spoiled rotten. Even Jimmy has let the Farmer pet him on the head.

We found the chicken a home. Her name is Ellie Mae. I finally took a  picture of her. She had started roosting on the bobcat

It has been raining since Thursday and today is Monday. I will not complain about the rain because we so much needed it. I am lacking in my steps though. I got myself a Garmin tracking watch. My app that I was using to track my miles along with listening to KLove radio app almost used all of my data for the month of August so I decided to get me the watch. 

I am still not on track with my eating yet. I tried to do better today but I have still eaten over my calories. I would love to get totally back on track We will see. 

Well I guess that is all I have got. I wish I had more to talk about. 

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Promises and Prayers

I was so happy that I got down below 200 pounds that I have gained it back making me all mad with myself. Weight loss is a struggle that some people have to struggle with every second of every day!!! I can not let myself get out of control any longer. I have been out of control every since my sons birthday on September 7th. I have been eating way to much. Starting in the morning for 30 days I am going to make some real changes. I am setting some new goals and I am going to stick to them the whole time with no excuses. I am beginning to think I am the queen of excuses and I have got to change my way of thinking. This is so hard and so sad that I feel like I can not even commit to something for 30 whole days but I am really going to try hard!!!

Here are my goals: 

1. I will not eat over my 1200 calories for any reason.

2. I will drink 120 oz. of water a day.

3. I will walk everyday but one I will rest.

4. I will track and write down every piece of food I put in my mouth.

5. I will blog this everyday for the 30 days.

Ok that is my goals I hope that this will be a success.


This was written Sunday night to begin on Monday morning. I have not eaten 1200 calories since I tried to make this commitment. I have picked up on my walking again but my eating is out of control. I feel terrible. Right now I have heart burn, I feel like a blowed up tick and I am really hating on myself for not being able to mentally be able to do this. I hate that my brain can take over in such negative ways. Why is it so easy to be negative and so hard to stay positive? I read blogs I have friends, and we all seem to be going through the same things. Do men have this same problem? Is it a woman thing?

This brings up this bible verse:

Philippians 4:6-7New Living Translation (NLT)

6 Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. 7 Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.

A book I have been reading tells me to pray instead of turning to food. Sometimes this just feels wrong. Prayer sometimes feels like it needs to be on more important things. My weight issue is important to me but is it important to God? 

Pray Pray Pray

Thanks for listening to me whine and I pray that I will one day get my mind together and drive out the negative.

Grape picking....

I got to go pick grapes Tuesday with grandma, aunt Barbra and Thelma. We had a great time. I did not get no pictures of anyone but grandma. I wanted pictures of her because she is 94 years old. I love grapes and I picked 17 pounds. I gave the Farmer's uncle around a pound of them and my family ate the rest. We finished them off today. I am ready to go pick some more.

A lot of stuff has been going on since my last post. My uncle's wife passed away on September 4th and my dad's first cousins wife died on the same day. I did not go to either funeral. I did not really know my cousins wife well and I was not able to go to my uncle's wife. 

We have been getting a little rain around here the last few days. Farmer has been busy cleaning out the chicken houses and mowing. He had to buy a new lawnmower the old one finally wore slap out on the deck. I will have to try and get a picture of it. We also have a chicken living up at the compost building. We have tried to give her away but no one wants her. Maybe we will find her a home before we get new chickens. I don't have a picture of her yet either. Here is a picture of one of my cocks combs. This is just one flower isn't it beautiful!

Butterfly

Writing spider

a doe

Well that is about all I have for tonight. Life seems to be a little boring around here. It has been so hot and humid that we don't want to be out much. 

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Seth's Birthday!!!

Well I could describe step by step how it all went down but I will leave out the gory stuff.  September 6, 1992 I was hugely pregnant with a baby boy! I was not due until the 9th so I did not think a lot about it when we got up that morning. The plan for the day was to go to the hospital and visit my mom then go back to granny Mabe's house and visit with her. Well this day I just did not feel like I could climb the long hill up to the hospital at Pinehurst. So this visit I got the man in the golf cart to take me up. We had a great visit with mom but I just did not feel right. When it was time for us to leave mom said " you might as well stay you will be back down here before long." I told her no it is not time. So we left the hospital and headed to granny Mabes. We had not been there long and granny invited us to eat supper with her. She was having chicken and dumplings. Great Grandpa Banner came in to visit and while he was there my water broke. Sure enough we were headed back to the hospital. Granny Mabe went with us. The Farmer and granny stayed with me the whole time! Well they kept trying to run granny out of the room but she would sneak right back in. At 12:35 on September the 7th my sweet baby boy was born. Happy 23 birthday sweet handsome boy!

This is Seth's 1st birthday!

Seth's 23 birthday!