Promises and Prayers

I was so happy that I got down below 200 pounds that I have gained it back making me all mad with myself. Weight loss is a struggle that some people have to struggle with every second of every day!!! I can not let myself get out of control any longer. I have been out of control every since my sons birthday on September 7th. I have been eating way to much. Starting in the morning for 30 days I am going to make some real changes. I am setting some new goals and I am going to stick to them the whole time with no excuses. I am beginning to think I am the queen of excuses and I have got to change my way of thinking. This is so hard and so sad that I feel like I can not even commit to something for 30 whole days but I am really going to try hard!!!

Here are my goals: 

1. I will not eat over my 1200 calories for any reason.

2. I will drink 120 oz. of water a day.

3. I will walk everyday but one I will rest.

4. I will track and write down every piece of food I put in my mouth.

5. I will blog this everyday for the 30 days.

Ok that is my goals I hope that this will be a success.


This was written Sunday night to begin on Monday morning. I have not eaten 1200 calories since I tried to make this commitment. I have picked up on my walking again but my eating is out of control. I feel terrible. Right now I have heart burn, I feel like a blowed up tick and I am really hating on myself for not being able to mentally be able to do this. I hate that my brain can take over in such negative ways. Why is it so easy to be negative and so hard to stay positive? I read blogs I have friends, and we all seem to be going through the same things. Do men have this same problem? Is it a woman thing?

This brings up this bible verse:

Philippians 4:6-7New Living Translation (NLT)

6 Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. 7 Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.

A book I have been reading tells me to pray instead of turning to food. Sometimes this just feels wrong. Prayer sometimes feels like it needs to be on more important things. My weight issue is important to me but is it important to God? 

Pray Pray Pray

Thanks for listening to me whine and I pray that I will one day get my mind together and drive out the negative.