Jimmy and Mama

Well I finally got a picture of our other calf that belongs to Bugsy. He is a little bull and a cutie.

Other mama has not had a calf yet. I am beginning to wonder if she is going to. The Farmer is getting ready to sell Jimmy, and Mama. I am kinda of sad about it but Mama is getting old and she just don't seem the same since she was not able to feed her calf. We are going to get rid of all of the cows and work on the pastures. It will be a while before we get rid of the others because of the calfs. Here is the corral that they are planning on catching Jimmy and Mama in. 

Mama and her gray eyelashes

Mama and gray down her back

Jimmy talking to the neighbor ladies

Jimmy talking to the neighbor ladies

corral

I have been loving these warm days. We have gotten out and saw some turkeys. and the barn kitties. I only took a picture of Maria. She is so pretty. 

                            

Maria

My tulips are blooming I love Tulips. I would love to have a bouquet of them. I am beginning to think that this is my favorite flower. 

I have really been trying to do better with my diet. I am going to start a new devotion on April 1st. I am excited about.

Yesterday was my granny's birthday. She died exactly one month before my wedding and it made me so sad. If she was alive she would be 105 years old. She was like my second my second mama. She was a strong woman in my life and taught me so many things I hope I never forget. I love and miss her so much. This is her at the beach. Her second happy place besides home.

Edna "granny"

Well thank you so much for stopping by. I hope everyone has a wonderful Easter. I miss dressing up in my Easter dress that my mom made me. Those years are long gone. 

All about my struggles

I guess you can say this is a blog entry about admitting what I don't want to admit. I have and addiction with food. I am so disappointed in myself that I don't have any "SELF DISCIPLINE" I used  to commit to lose weight and stick to a eating plan. I can not stick to weight watchers or counting calories and the scales are showing. I was so proud getting into my 180's and I have allowed myself to get back in 190's. I am so disappointed in myself. I am defeating all of my hard work on working out everyday for an hour. I feel like a failure. I know a lot of women struggle with weight and food issue but I really want to get to my goal and not just talk about it anymore. I heard some hard truth today and it hit hard. Do you really need to eat two eggs and grits. Why not just one egg?  Did you really need the 90 calorie brownie? I was up to my calorie intake for the day and What did I do I ate a slice of pizza, bread sticks, doritos, 2 mini dark chocolate candies and NO I did not stop there I had a chocolate pop tart. My brain tells me to stop eating but then I tell my self who cares??? It is not going to hurt you. You exercised you deserve it. But I don't I have got to stop telling myself this. I have got to be smart. I have not lost any weight in a year and kept it off. I only have 30 or 35 pounds I want to lose. I can not even tell that I have lost any inches in a long time. My thighs still touch, My belly is still to many inches around. I know what to do but I always have excuses! I have also gotten slack with my daily devotions and bible reading. I know better I wanted to get closer to God this year and I have let LIFE drag me down. I have fallen back into my pity parties, I worked so hard with God's help to pull be back out of this dark place. I don't like it I don't want to fall all the way into it ever again. So please pray for me.

Thank you for listening to me whine.

Planting potatoes.

The Farmer has been itching to plant potatoes. He has been watching the weather for the perfect day and today was the day. 

The Farmer plowing

Farmer and Seth planting potatoes 

Farmer and Seth planting potatoes 

Rows of potatoes I hope they all come up.

We also planted some red onion sets. I did them and I did not think to take a picture of them. I hope they come up I am not a very good green thumb person. I forgot in the last post to tell about the female red bird that hit our bay window and stunned itself. It was on Monday when we were getting the snow and rain mixture. It made me sad because I thought for sure it was going to die.  I picked her up and wrapped my hands around it to get it warm. I sit it over close to a bush that is next to the house. I kept checking on her until she finally disappeared so I assumed she gathered herself and flew off. I never saw her again 

It has been a good day. My sister and nephew had a birthday on the 14. I wish they lived closer to me so I could see them more often. I love them dearly. 

Well I will close nowThanks for stoping by. 

   

Hard Week....

Well this has been a hard week. Sunday a man that lives in the neighborhood broke into grandmas house. He busted out the window pane on the door and went in packing up stuff in totes. He had already loaded grandpas tool box, Farmers drill, and some other things out of the building. He had crazy stuff packed up in the house but the Farmer went out there and caught him before he got away. He called the police and had him arrested. He did not get anything but it was stressful on me and the Farmer. The Farmer worked for 3 days getting stuff cleaned up and put back up.

25 years ago on the 12th of March my daddy passed away. These memories aways make me sad. There are so many thing I wish I had asked and wish I had done. My daddy passed away at the age of 48 and that was way to young. He only meet my oldest son the day he was born. My daddy came to the hospital to visit me and that made me so happy. This is the only time he ever meet any of his grandsons. He would have been so proud to have 6 grandsons all together.  This is probably one of the last pictures of my daddy with his children before he passed away. I miss him so much.

Also my cow mama's calf died. We think mama may have had some green grass poison that kept her milk from dropping. We were trying to feed the little calf to keep it alive but it did not work. 

Our other cow Bugsy had a calf but I just have not cared to go out and get a picture yet. 

I have also been so discouraged with my self and my lack of will power to eat healthy. I am on day 54 of my 80 day obsession workout and I have not lost a pound because of my mood or mentality. It is like I don't really care when I do. I am 4 days into Phase 3 of it and I am so sore today I can barely sit down on the toilet. I have even been considering to actually joining weight watchers but I know that I will just be wasting my money. I really wish that changing the way you think was easier than just saying it. Oh well I have gotten slack on my devotion reading, and my bible reading so that is probably  one of my biggest problem. I should always put God first in everything. 

Thanks for listening to me whine. With Gods help I will get bak on track. Please pray for me.