Father's Day

I have not done well on my calorie intake for 3 days now. I am so full right now that I am mad at myself. I have got to get back on track tomorrow. I really wanted to be below or at 200 pounds by the end of June. I just hope I have not gained any weight. I hate having to lose the some pounds over again. 

Today was Father's Day. I have missed my dad today and really wish he was here to spend time with me and my family. I really wish that I had pictures of me and my dad fishing, riding horses, and many other adventures that we had. No available cameras like today. I hope that Farmer had a good Father's Day. I made spaghetti for him which is not really his favorite food but we went to Wendy's and got a frosty in a sugar waffle cone. It was really good!! I think what he is the most happy about is that he is out of chickens. 

Out of chickens

We worked in the garden this weekend. Our garden is looking really good but the weather man is calling for 90's and not much chance of rain. I hope we at least get a pop up. Our garden is really looking good.

Corner view of the garden

Okra

Green beans

Squash

Cucumbers

green beans and tomatoes 

We have 6 tomatoes growing in our cold frame and they are also doing well.

These are as tall as me and Clay.

They are loaded in tomatoes.

Thanks for stopping by.

Feeling better....

I am feeling better. I am so happy that I am really feeling so much better. I have finally got some energy back and my back is feeling much better. I am happy to say I finally got the fluid back off I gained from the iv and being sick. This helped me to feel better. I could not figure out how I gained 3 pounds when I was so sick. Sorry about my toes. I had brown toenail polish on and I could not get it all off. I will try to get more off today.

I am so excited I did not get a picture of this Friday. I woke up with cold chills and the fever that I did not have bad like Saturday. I took a shower and breakfast and got ready for a trip to the zoo. I took my camera but I did not get to many good pictures even though I remember to take my glasses with me I did not remember to take them in the zoo with me. Oh well my pictures were blurry and not real clear. 

Giraffe

I love this picture of my boys with the mamaw. 

It is so hard to get them  both to look. 

Flamingos 

We had a good time at the zoo. I felt fine just tired a little but would never have thought I was sick. Later when we got home, we all went over to the pond to relax. I got some pictures of a summer tanager pair over there. Along with a  indigo bunting and some cow birds.

indigo bunting

Cow Birds

Summer Tanager pair

A cow decided to take a swim and watched us sitting on the pier taking her picture.

Cow cooling off.

I also got a pair of doves on the gate but it is kind of blurred because I was to far away. 

Doves

We left from the pond and went back to check on the chickens. There was a small bird that was just sitting there.

a little dazed

By the time we got in the house it was getting dark and I was getting tired and cold. I had another cold chill and covered up with my snuggie and took a nap. I thought it had just been a long day. Oh well. Thanks for stopping by.

So weak

I feel so weak. I am 47 years old and I can not ever remember feeling this bad. Yesterday I felt like all I did was nap. I did manage to go get some groceries with lots of help from my family but it wore me out. I really want to just take a nap right now. I went out with the farmer this morning and walked around the yard. I have folded some towel and Seth put them away for me. Seth is such a helper I don't know what I would do with out him. He keeps all of my laundry washed and dried. I weigh this morning and I am so aggravated. I am hoping the weight gain I am see is all from the iv fluids and the kidney infection. I really think it has to be because I have not really eaten bad. I did not even take a picture of my weight loss last week. I got down to 209.6 and I am up 3 pounds today. So frustrated! I have not eaten bad and I think that it has to be from fluids. Oh well, I just want to feel better.

I have not even been interested in taking pictures for my photo challenges that I do. I let someone pick the one for June and it is hard to come up with a photo idea. The title says that it is a photo journal challenge so I can see where they come up with ideas like the last movie you watched or night activities???? LOL Oh well. I am getting off here to rest. I am so sleepy. Pray that I soon feel better.

hay and sick

Sorry I have not wrote a blog post in a while but I have been busy and sick. It is the craziest thing. I have been chasing birds, watching  Farmer has been helping his dad get up hay and me and the boys have been watching him The boys love watching tractors. We sat over in the pasture for 5 1/2 hours watching farmer on the bobcat  unloading hay  and putting it in the barn. My back started hurting while sitting on the Kawasaki mule. I did not feel well that night and I got real cold I was shivering. I took two ibuprofen and went to bed. Thursday we went back to watch farmer load and unload hay. Oh after 50 years of marriage father in law  taught mom to drive the tractor.  She was so proud of herself.

Farmer on bobcat and mama on the tractor

Mama on tractor

Thursday night I went out with the farmer to take a picture of night activities. We walked up to the chicken houses to try to get a picture of the raccoon that is in the compost bin every-night or the owl that we seen up there the night before. Did not get either one. Thursday night I did not sleep worth a crap. I was real restless tossing and turning low back was hurting again I woke up around 4 oclock and had to go to the bathroom. Went back to bed and woke up and 5 am shivering again. I snuggled up real close to the Farmer and put the afghan on. I got up and took some more ibuprofen and went back to bed only waking up around 7 sweating. I got up and went to the zoo with mama in law and the boys. walked the whole zoo felt fine. We went over to the pond and took some pictures of the birds when we got home I started aching and was starting to get cold again. I got my pajamas on and snuggled up in my snuggle with my corn heating pad. I took a short nap and woke up sweating. I sweated until I went to bed. I slept pretty good waking up around 6 am and had to go to the bathroom.When I laid back down I started getting cold. I was shivering and shaking. Farmer woke up and told to go take a hot shower I was so cold I could not get warm. I throw up and was so cold shaking and could not get warm. I got the farmer to take my temperature it was 104.7. I was almost hyper-ventilating. I got the farmer to call his mom to come and see about me. She took me to the ER and I found out that I have a really bad kidney infection. I have never been told that I have ugly urine that it was really bad. I had to be hooked up to an iv for fluids and antibiotic through my iv. I have never had a bladder infection that I did not feel bad. Never thought it was that bad.

Happy Friday!!

Day 12 I got slack on taking pictures of what I eat but I eat some of the same things everyday or every other day. I don't want to bore people with my food pictures. Fridays is my weigh in day and I am pleased with what the scales said today.

I have lost 5.8 pounds since I have started this. 

I have been trying really hard keeping my calories down but it is so hard. Yesterday I ate 182 calories over and I have almost everyday this week but not by much. For now I have stopped exercising  for right now and it has seem to help for now.When I hit a plateau I can add some exercise back in. I hope I can keep it up I want to get to 160 but for now I just want to get under 200 lbs. I am having to be really careful with this because I don't want to get to discouraged or to over confident that I am doing good and back slide. I am weird like that LOL. I need to get to the store and to PR Moores and get me some fruit. I have been out for around 3 days and it makes it hard. Oh well just pray that I will make it to get healthy. 

Oh yes I wanted to share something. You know Wednesday when I was down and hungry I went outside to sit in my new favorite place. We have 2 swings in the yard. One in the front and one in the back. Clay loves to swing but he does not like anyone swinging with him

My favorite place

Clay swinging with his pooh stick and his bag of balls Our bull Jimmy watching him.

Well anyway has you remember I was a little down and a little hungry on Wednesday so we decided to go outside and watch the Farmer mow the yard. Clay loves to watch his dad mow the yard

Farmer mowing

While sitting in the swing thinking about what I wrote in my blog and thinking about how much better a person can feel by just going outside. I was thinking about what my next blog entry could be on being "Happy" I was thinking what really makes a person happy? Having children that have fragile x syndrome can draw a fine line on being happy and upset. Clay is really happy when he has multiple entertainment going on and then again all of these things can make him upset just depends. Me on the other hand I try to be happy. I love it when everyone in my family is happy. I love it when little things make me happy and so forth, but even when were are happy sometimes something little can change that mood. Like a comment, someone else mood changes, and so many other things no matter how minor or major it is. Well I am thinking about all of this and looking up in the trees for birds. You know I have a new obsession on taking pictures of birds. While looking for birds I notice this tree and it made me smile

A Happy Tree!!

Now when I go to my new favorite place I get to see my happy tree!! 

Thanks for stopping by I hope I did not jump around to much but that is me.

Hungry Wednesday....

     I am glad that my children are grown and for most part don't need me to hover over them like I did when they were small. They still need my supervision on almost everything but they usually occupy there time with technology. So this leads to boredom for me. I can only stand to look at facebook for so long. I check my emails which I don't get many. I check my blog and then I get up and straighten up the house. The house stays pretty clean now that the boys are grown. Oh well I try to find things to do so that I don't eat. I have got to start back taking photos of my food this was working really well for me.

     I started this blog a few years back to help me get through summers. I have always loved summer breaks from school but I hated them to.I have not always been open and honest on my blog because I don't like people judging me or my family. I also hate pity unless I am the one wallering in my on pity party. 

     Many days I have sit in this house because I could not get out with both of my boys. I have never had a cap worker or friends and family that really helped out. My parents died when my oldest son was a baby. The farmers parents help some but I have seen times when I wish they would have come by every day. Back then the farmer worked in a mill on 3rd shift so he slept during the day and some days he worked as a plumbers helper. So we had many days stuck in the house. There was never anything that I could do with both boys to keep them happy and occupied outside. We have had pools, bikes and other things but they only worked for a short amount of time and then there was usually a meltdown and I found it easier to keep them in the house. I had play groups when my oldest son was young but after the second one it become impossible to take both of them. My oldest son when he was young had horrible panic attacks and would whine and cry to go home until you took him. He still panics but he is not as bad as he use to be. My youngest son has meltdowns and can be hard to control but I always managed until he got as big as me. He does not really get violent but he will sit down and not get up. I just find it easier now to wait and do stuff when the farmer is done with his work.

So here I am bored again. My oldest son is spending some time with his pops and my youngest son has taken over the tv watching his dvr shows and I would love something to eat. It is almost 12 so I guess I could make me some lunch now.

Well thanks for stopping by. 

Sunday and birds

Taking pictures of my food has helped me lose weight this week but I have been slack today taking pictures. We had spaghetti which is my second favorite food to pizza that we had yesterday. I did good for breakfast only eating 3 slices of cantaloupe and a cup of coffee. I eat a plate of spaghetti and a small salad with my light balsamic vinaigrette and one roll. I ate a small plate of spaghetti for supper and one roll. I had one of those small round cakes they sell close to the strawberries with fresh strawberries and fat free cool whip. I am not sure on calories but I am sure I went over today again. Oh I forgot I ate a few M & M's and 1/4 of a york peppermint patty with 6oz. of coke. Oh well tomorrow is Monday and I will be on full track again.

For two days the farmer, me and my boys have been bird chasing. I have been trying to capture another picture of an indigo bunting. I asked the farmer about calling in one with the bird call on his phone. So we tried it and it worked. It was so funny watching the birds trying to figure out where the bird was calling from.

See him checking out the phone?

the summer tanager

Female summer tanager

Female summer tanager

Now I need a new bird to chase and get a picture of. I need to look up some native birds to see what I can find. 

Thanks for stopping by. Sorry for being so boring but it is my struggle to lose weight and I am loving taking pictures of birds. According to the research I have done I could be doing so much better if I had a 400 mm lens but I am happy with what I am getting.