Life

I don't know what else to call this entry. So much going on with me I am all over the place. Let's begin with this hurricane Florence. As most of you know that follow me we grow chickens for a well known chicken company. We have 2 houses with approximately 40,000 bird total. Well the Farmer was stressed because of the amount of rain they were calling for and the wind speeds. We were told we needed 350 gallons of diesel fuel on hand for generator incase power goes off. So we had to go out and buy a extra tank. Stress and worry with this and how bad it was going to be. Thank God it was not near as bad as they were calling for here. Our power only went off for about 3 hours and that was great.

The stress of my sister staying in New Bern during the hurricane was affecting me also. Luckily she did not get any damage but was without power 4 days I think that is what she told me. My youngest son had an upset stomach, got a first ever mouth ulcer in the corner of his mouth and then his face was swollen  and finally got him to let us look in his mouth and he has a bad tooth. We ended up taking him to urgent care because the dentist was already closed. Got him on antibiotic and I called the dentist and took him. I told them he would not cooperate and they would not be able to get into his mouth without sedation of some kind. I don't think they really believed me but it did not happen when we got there. He totally refused to have anything to do with them coming near him. They said they would make arrangement with an oral surgeon and go in and fix anything that needs to be fixed at one time. I have not heard back from them and it has been a week so I have been stressing about that. 

Also during all of this I broke out in a rash on my breast area. So I took it as stress, high humidity and sweat. Well a week later and it did not go away so I ended up going to the doctor also to see what was going on. I have been to this doctor for at least 30 years and for some reason this time I was stressed/anxiety so bad that my blood pressure was high and heart rate. I know I sound like I am losing it and I honestly I would agree right now. 

I know in my last post I was going to make changes and get my act together on my nutrition and my scales slowly creeping back up. I read two blogs yesterday from 2 different women who are going through the same thing as me. I really think that women struggle so much trying to do everything to please and take care of others that they kind of let theirselves fall to the wayside. We try to make out that we just want to be happy and eat normal and not worry about anything. We try hard to convince ourself that all is good, but deep inside we know that it is a lie. We have to stay on our toes, always aware of what we are putting into our mouths. But the most important thing that I keep forgetting is that I need to let God help me with everything not just pick and choose what I think I can handle and what I know I can't. I have had like 2 more episodes of my heart beating fasting and feeling stressed/anxiety since the doctor. I need to give it all to God and stop letting me stress over and trust that it is in his hands and he will take care of it like it needs to be. 

I am starting a new program tomorrow called Lift4 with Joel from Beach Body. I am ready for a change in exercise and my nutrition will get its act together. I will get the dental procedure scheduled and taken care of this coming week. But my biggest thing I want to do is get me time in with God. I have let that take a back seat to. On my instagram I am posted pictures of my food if anyone is interested in following. I am trying to eat clean. vltgarner is my instagram. 

This is steel bridge in Thickety Creek. It flooded and a tree hit it and tore part of it off. I will never forget on a date years ago with the Farmer in his big Monster gray truck. I thought we were going to hit the sides. 

I am selling persimmons again. I have not gotten as many of orders this year. 

I made a pudding with this for less calories and it was yummy

5 dollars a bag 2 cups of pulp in a bag

Isn't the pulp pretty 

Well I guess that about covers everything that is going on here. I hope the next post I have has a lot less stress in it.