Saturday, February 28, 2015


Many times I have heard of making a promise to yourself you are more likely to keep it. This has never been my case. I must really be bad a promises unless I make them to someone else. I have made promises, goals and commitments to myself to lose weight and get healthy. It is not about being skinny but about being healthy. But for some reason I can not seem to find my balance between food and being healthy.

It is like you know how to do something, you know what to do to get it done but yet you have no ambition to get started. It is either like an addiction to the food or just being lazy and not wanting to do it. Finding every excuse under the sun to wait one more day, that the candy bar is not going to hurt me or just go and walk it off. Yet I get tired of walking, I get tired of tracking every bite of food that I put in my mouth, and I get tired of not being able to eat what I want.

What is more important to me? Breaking promises? Working through my food addictions? Or just living my life and taking the risk of gaining more weight back? Why can't life just be simple?

So tomorrow is March 1st. Tomorrow is the day that I want to make a short term commitment to myself for one month. I have my yearly check up on April 1st and I would love to be lighter by then. Really all I want is to get under 200 pounds by then which is only 7 pounds. Everyday I am going to blog and try to keep myself dedicated to this promise. Can it be done? I don't know but I will pray to my Father in Heaven to give me the courage and commitment to get this done.

Matthew 19:26 But Jesus beheld them, and said unto them, With men this is impossible; but with God all things are possible.

Thursday, February 19, 2015


Well I am still having a hard time staying in my calorie range. Even with exercise. I have got to stop eating candy every day. Starting in the morning I am giving up candy except for one a week. I have got to do better. It is hard to do when you family loves chocolate as much as you do. I have got to put my foot down and do it already. Just stop talking about it and just do it!!

We went and got the boys some new mattresses today. Seth is suppose to get his new carpet next week. I hope this is the year that we get a lot of things fixed in the house! I really wish we could get me a new building to put some stuff in but I guess in reality I should just declutter. Don't you just hate getting rid of stuff when you get rid of it then you will need it again. I have a lot of stuff I kept from teaching and I don't want to get rid of just in case I teach again one day.

This was a lot of rambling.

Tuesday, February 17, 2015

Out of Control....Time to get Healthy...

My blog is going to become a diet support blog for 3 months. I have joined a challenge with Modestly Slim. I am hoping that this will be the boost I need to lose some weight before summer. I am so discouraged I weighed this morning and this is the results.

I know why the scales have moved up. I have been eating like I have no problems with overeating food.  I have not figured out what causes me to overeat. I know some of it is emotional. I know some is hormones and I know that sometimes I just don't care. Tonight I have over eaten until I feel sick. I have been out of control for months. I really say every night that I will do better tomorrow. Then tomorrow comes and I over eat again. I can not get my mind straight. I have prayed about it and I will do pretty good only eating over a few calories and I will walk and maybe be down a pound the next day or two then I will over eat again.

I think I really know in my heart what I need to do to get myself under control. Basically I need to stop cold turkey!! I need to get my priorities straight and decided what I want to do. Do I want to lose weight? Here is my challenge:

t's time to spice things up around here. I am running a three month get healthier challenge. Why three months? Because it's long enough to accomplish some goals but not too long to lose interest. This is 100% customize able to your own lifestyle and choices. Long term weight loss success is achieved by finding a lifestyle you are willing to live with. There will be prizes for the top three people with the most points. You can earn points every day during the challenge and here is how:
1. Exercise: 1 point per day . No requirement on how long or what to do. Find what you like and do what you can do. You get the point regardless of how long or how intense your exercise is. Someone who has less weight to lose will probably workout harder and longer than someone with more weight to lose
2. Stay within your calorie/point range for the day : I'm sure we all have our own favorite tracking methods
3. 1 point per every pound lost: please report all losses as even .2 pound losses will eventually add up. This is low on purpose because I want to reward behavior and not encourage rapid unsustainable weight loss
4. Post something motivational or inspirational on the Facebook group: 2 points (can earn this once a day)
5. Healthy recipe post on Facebook group : 2 points ( can earn once a day)
6. Set a non weight goal you want to achieve by the end of the challenge: 10 points for accomplishing your goal
7. Change one bad habit: 10 points 
I will announce the prizes half way through the challenge. The ultimate reward is a happier and healthier you. So in the end everyone will be a winner. If you are serious about getting healthy or losing weight then now is the time. This is your chance to get going! I've never been the most patient person so we will get started tomorrow!!! (Tuesday the 17th) comment below if you want to join the challenge!!!!!

Thursday, February 12, 2015


Well Bugsy had her calf last night. I got out and took a few pictures of the calves today.

Bugsy calf

Mama and other mama's calfs

Jimmy not liking me taking pictures

Short and sweet...
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Wednesday, February 11, 2015


I have many things on my mind tonight. I am feeling good about my bible study and I have recently found a podcast of a church in Ga. about the study of "Happiness". I found this from a persons blog I follow.  The podcast is wonderful so far and I am looking forward to listening to the whole series and I am already dreading its ending. I am also doing the 21 day challenge that she challenged us to do for the rest of the month to write down 3 gratitudes, your thought for the day and 2 random acts of kindness. I am doing this challenge also and am enjoying it. I feel like I am slowly finding my happiness. I know I have written  a blog in the past on being happy and can a person truly be happy? I use to think I was happy when I was young. Then I thought I was happy in high school. But when I think back on it was I really happy? NO!! I had happy times all through my life and I have had hardships, depressions, lost, and feelings of pity and why me. I truly think that most people including me have thought I would be happy if.... I was skinny.  If I had more money.  If I had a big house. If my parents were alive. If my children did not have fragile x. But the reality is that none of these things will not make me happy. I love what the preacher said on the podcast "Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart". I am going to find my Happy!!!

I have some things to share from the farm. It is so muddy on the farm, but it is slowly drying up. The chickens are growing and they are already 2 weeks old. We are still waiting on Bugsy to have her cave she is a little slower this year. Jimmy is still being Jimmy we are thinking about selling him this year but we have not decided for sure.

Sunday we went for a walk at Troy Lake. It was a beautiful day!

We help the farmers parents load one of their older cows up to take to the sale. It was the farmer's mom's cow. Her name is Dandelion and she is such a sweet cow. She will be missed.

We took Jenny and Valentine an apple for a snack then they went to the pond for a drink of water. 

One day this week I was sitting at the dinning room table reading my bible and I saw a hawk swoop down trying to catch a bird at the feeder. It missed it and landed on the fence post right across the driveway. I took a picture of it out of the window and it is not real clear but I just love hawks. 

We filed our taxes on Monday and went on down to Southern Pines to Best Buy and ordered my camera. It should be here by the 18th and I can not wait. I have decided to go ahead and sign up for a photography class as soon as I get it. I am so excited. 

Well thanks for stopping by. 

Friday, February 6, 2015

On the farm

Cold and rainy around here. When the suns comes out it is windy and cold. They are calling for warmer weather this weekend and I hope that it is true. I would love to get some walking in outside. The farmers parents are still sick but they are improving. I hope that they will be well soon. The coughing is what is getting them now. The farmer got to give his dad's cows hay and use the new tractor that pops bought.

The farmer has been so busy. They only allowed him 11 days without chickens. He had to work everyday getting the houses ready to get biddies back. Clay got to help lower the brooders for him. 

I have been seeing a few signs of spring my daffodils are coming up and have buds on them. 

I really would love to see just a little snow before spring gets here. I hope that we at least get to see a snow flake. 

Every thing has been going pretty good around here. Mama and Other Mama have had a calf on the 4th and 5th. Here are a few pictures I hope to get some better ones as the get older and move around more. 

Mama is laying at the hay ring with her calf

Other Mama's calf laying in the weeds.

Mama's calf it would not look 

I am trying to get back on track with my diet. I have gotten where I am staying in my calorie range and I have started walking on my treadmill again. I hurt my foot house walking. House walking is getting in 10,000 steps by walking in the house. I would like 2,000 steps and would walk the house to make it to 10,000 steps. I was doing this in my sock and I pulled something in my foot. With ice, naprosyn, and foot exercise it is getting better. Well this was a little catch up on the farm.

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Sunday, February 1, 2015

February 1st.....

Today has not been to bad. I have been a little achy in my muscles today but I think it is because of rain coming. We did not get to go to Sunday school this morning because my mother in law has pneumonia for the second time. I know you are probably asking why does that matter? Well I decided when I quit work to stay home with them that I am not going to take them any where by myself where they are not happy. When mamaw is not there my  youngest is not happy. So I did my daily morning bible study at home, took and shower and when the farmer got done doing his farm work we went and got some hot wings at a Zaxby's yummy!! I also made some taco soup  that was delicious.

My aunt Betty is doing better and is suppose to get out of the hospital tomorrow. She is still not back to normal. She still has the blood clot in her lung. She has fluid around her heart and in one of her lungs. The bleeding she had that put her in the hospital is gone. I was really hoping they were going to send her home with home health care but she is not sure something about they don't have any available right now. Oh well please keep her and my mother in law in your prays. 

My moms and nephews birthday was yesterday. I can not believe my mom has been dead for 22 years now. It does not feel like it has been that long. I still miss her so much and wish so many time she was here to see all six of her grandson. My nephew Mason was born on her birthday and he turned 12 years old. Oh how time flies. My brother and his family got a new puppy over the weekend I can not wait to meet her. I will try to post some pictures of her when I can. 

Well it is getting late. Thanks for stoping by,